She never even told Ezra where across the Bay Bridge in Oakland she lived

She never even told Ezra where across the Bay Bridge in Oakland she lived

Jane met Ezra online and never considered him anything but a rebound guy, someone to help her get over her last boyfriend. She always met him at a restaurant in the financial district, where Ezra worked as a software engineer. She bought a pregnancy test one morning after she missed her period.

“But you’re at work,” Jane said. She looked around her small studio apartment, the mess in the corner, the cats on the bed.

It was sweet for him to offer, but she wanted to control things the way her last boyfriend had controlled things with her; it was like that bad breakup inspired her to write a personal manifesto of her ideal rebound relationship

“I could drive over to your place,” he offered. It sickened her to imagine his male presence in her studio.

She sat on the toilet and took the test, but then she experienced an unexpected wave of something like intuition. It was like a sixth sense, which made her feel ashamed to suddenly want to know more about this man who might have gotten her pregnant. She knew so little about him: he made good money, lived two blocks from his sister and niece, and even helped support them. Now she wanted to know more, so much more.

In red, small letters toward the top of people’s profiles, the site reported the exact minute when the user last logged in, and now Jane could see that Ezra had logged in only one minute ago. He was using the site presently. She felt stunned by this fact: he was logged in now!

Had he merely felt anxiety over the news that she might be pregnant, and allowed his anxiety to manifest into a search for other girls? Was he simply hunting for new women to date at the exact time Jane waited to discover if her whole life would change?

So at her desk, she logged onto the Internet dating site where she’d first contacted Ezra and pulled up his profile

She sat on her bed, very much alone, and waited. The test came up negative. She wanted to make sure, so she took another test, waited again, and again it came up negative. She phoned her A.A. sponsor and started to cry into the phone.

“A pregnancy scare y W., said. Amy, six years sober, worked as a research librarian at a branch of the Oakland Public Library, and had just had a baby herself. Jane could hear the baby in the background.

In the end, she decided she wanted something close to nothingness – although Amy W. argued that Ezra felt less like a rebound and more like an old boyfriend hangover. Jane thought of her romantic life relative to the laws of supply and demand: the demand for a good man was so high, the supply so low.

She considered hunting for another Ezra Stein, an interchangeable dude with a decent job, clean fingernails, and an apartment with a view. But why go through all that trouble, to sort through online profiles and emails, and then all those first dates for coffee so she could screen them?

After she got the phone call about her father, she booked a flight and returned home. Jane drove in a rental car straight from the Orlando airport to the old neighborhood. She still remembered every inch of it, a mixture of residential houses, office buildings, and a few restaurants and one local bar. The neighborhood stank of new development. The empty, concrete square where she’d learned to roller blade had been turned into condominiums. The pasta place owned by the family down the block now was a chain hamburger restaurant she avoided in the Bay Area. The house where she grew up no longer existed at all. She found instead a gray, generic office building. Jane parked the car and read the signs on the front of the building, the names of doctors and dentists on a plain white board. She walked over like a detective and peeked down a long, thin ally way on the side of the building. What she hoped to find down there she did not know.


Even though I am over a half a Century old, I have been inspired by the group to go for higher education. I have applied to the University of Regina and I got accepted. I plan on taking classes there and there and I pray and hope I will be successful to obtain two more degrees before I reach age 55. I want to be a role model for the students, my family, and the community. Before retiring I will tackle Masters.

Jimmy Charles
Stanley Mission Rhoda Hardlotte Memorial High School

I really appreciate the SUTIL group and connections of associate members.  This makes planning a career day so much easier.  Thank you!

Shelly Fransoo
John Paul II Collegiate

Great Opportunity to allow students and parents to get the information from the institutions themselves.

John Svenson
Melville Comprehensive

Fantastic service to students in remote areas many of whom are not exposed to their opportunities in life.

Clarence Neault
Senator Myles Venne School

Was a great morning!  Kids were highly engaged and had the opportunity to see a lot of options for post secondary!

Michelle Wolf
Carnduff Education Complex

Easy to plan. Great opportunity for students! Presenters were excellent and engaging. I thought it was great. Good diversity of options for students. Awesome!

Jeff Pederson
Aden Bowman

The event is very well organized and provides students with a great student:presenter ratio.

Darin Faubert
Wadena Composite

Looking forward to having you come again next year.

Ryan Johnson
Davidson and Kenaston School

The SUTIL Booths Only event allows students and parents/guardians to connect with recruiters from a wide variety of institutions and receive pertinent information firsthand in a relaxed atmosphere.

Donna Bouchard
Marion M. Graham Collegiate

I appreciate the ease of planning this event. Communication was excellent and efficient.  I love the SWAG that students and I get.

Bonnie Baron-Williams
Thom Collegiate

I appreciate all of the communication from the institutes ! Everything is well organized! Thanks!

Kipp Bayer
Sturgis Composite School

Happy Friday the 13th of December,

Thank you for The SUTIL Scoop and the SUTIL team visit at Rhoda Hardlotte Keethanow High School in Northern Saskatchewan. I noticed some of the team members were into Volleyball during the noon hour. Maybe that is how the team works; to have fun and to laugh and to warm up before presenting to the students and staff. Great Team! Thank you once again, SUTIL Team.

Jimmy Charles
Guidance Counselor-Stanley Mission

Hi Linda and Cheryl,

Thank you on behalf of Nutana Collegiate for bringing your event to our students. I have been hearing nothing but positive feedback in the building since this morning. Being new in the career facilitator role in my building, I can’t tell you how grateful I am for having such a well-organized and easy (from the host school perspective) event to offer to my students. All of the hard work that you have put in is much appreciated. I look forward to future events.

Shona Iverson-Career Facilitator
Nutana Collegiate

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